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home vs. sidwell: victory at last
January 20, 2012 (Afternoon)
Exercise Type: Other
Comments:
we won. it was fun. :)
I thought we needed to be at the gym at 4, but it turns out thats actually when the game STARTED and we needed to be down at 3:30...woops! they had to call me down on the speaker...couldnt have been more embarassed
So missed ALL of the warm up, so i quickly ran a couple laps. when i went in, i hadnt even touched a ball yet. so my shooting was, well, awful. i mean, really, really awful. but my defense was good, which brought up my confidence and helped with the nerves i felt on offense. by the end of the game, my nerves were really beginning to settle down and became more aggressive and able to actually think clearly.
games are really beginning to be fun. i remember earlier this season when i wished every day was just practice, and that we'd never have another game. but now im kinda enjoying myself, enjoying the challenge, the competition, the excitement, with a better and better handle on my nerves with each day. :)
i think i've lost focus this week - with school i mean. with everything going on/wrong, with my momentary loss of direction, with the frustration and confusion - i let my life get off-balance a little. but i think im ready to get my head back in the game, so to speak, now that i think im starting to recover that sense of direction. ... ok my philosophical moment is over. i have no idea whether that made any sense, but it did in my own head.
hope the track team ran good today!
oh yeah, and i had some rediculously vivid dreams last night. both took place at school. the first - revolving around rachel and greg and this potential trip (it was weird...i dunno...). the second - revolving around physics...sorta...not exactly that class actually...no, i dont think it was about that actual class at all. i just remember waking up so completely nerveous and afraid. it was definitely telling about my fears, particularly with what was to come/expected to come today. (the fear of talking to someone who i'd never really spoken to who had all the power in the situation...mixed with a bunch of other stuff...wondering if i would be heard, if i would be seen as important enough to take seriously...wondering whether i should just back out and forget the whole think, but angry that i should be driven to such a point of fear...but it actually worked out ok so its fine. ok ill stop talking now. i mean writing.)