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Pisgah x2 Repeats

March 22, 2014 (Afternoon)

Exercise Type: Run

Weather: 60, sunny

Comments:
...got home and unpacked and started laundry. I was SO tired, but also SO stressed out about this Chels shit. Exchanged a few more texts with BGD and thought about a response: Do I write her back? Text? Email? Do I humor this response or tell her to fuck off completely?

Once laundry was in the dryer, I took off for Pisgah. Though my body was crushed, I KNEW I had to get some vert, and I didn't want to do long+vert+progression in the same run on Sunday, so it was off to Pisgah. Had the weather not been SO phenomenal, I would've just stayed at home and gone to bed at 5PM. Serz.

Got to Pisgah and shuffled up the hill about 200m before the HR spike caused me to hike. The ups were SLOW and quite impossible to run without HR>140 or higher. So I hiked.

It was enjoyable. Quite a few people out: apparently high school girls have nothing better to do at 6PM on a Saturday night than hike Pisgah, with or without parents. In general, there were many "almost hot" women on the hill.

Thought some more about Chels: maybe I should talk to Chels 2? I guess I need to know whether or not there is ANY hope or if I should just tell her to fuck off.

Either way, what I think I decided is that I will go to yoga Monday night "to return the bike pump", and then - I guess quite simply but in the least threatening way possible - ask her whether or not she wants me in her life.

She alluded to us being friends in our 3/10 meeting, but that's fucking impossible. I will not take an empty half-friend from her, ever again. So I guess she's going to have to decide.

And, ultimately, I am going to MAKE HER make a decision: she either love me and wants me in her life (and has intention to restart, reconfigure our relationship), or she has to TELL ME that she does not. None of this numb, drifting away. SHE has to choose. SHE has to confront this. SHE has to decide whether the events and feelings of the last 4 months are worth a damn to her.

Finished with the two up/downs, then drove home. Showered up, ate, then went to bed before 8:30 AM. Was up >20hrs straight.

(Wore the 2011 WS Mizuno trails again)