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Bend bummin'...
August 23, 2014 (Morning)
Exercise Type: Other
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Slept in, then ate a carb-tastic Super 8 breakfast. Checked out at 11, then went downtown for coffee, then beers! Had a porter at Bend Brewing (the 2nd oldest micro in Bend), and wound up talking to a girl who's running her first ultra in the fall.
After that, we went to Boneyard for some tastes, then hit the road. Drove 20+126 home, with no scenic route.
Got home in time to clean up for the work grill-out at Sean+Rachel's. That was pretty fun, and after that, Steve and I met up with Cliff and Melissa, MrR and Emily at Tap & Growler.
Callie was working again. I like her (with a lower-case "l"), and she at least likes my attention. She's running McKenzie 50K in < 2 weeks so we talked a bit about that. She's a mega-cutie and, while much too young (23?), she likes me, too.
I recognize my pattern, now: that when I feel my "relationship security" is threatened, I go "seeking others". And to be honest, I do feel a bit threatened right now:
- by her inconsistency and perceived withdrawals
- by her relationship with Miguel
Both of these are residual wounds from Chelsea, and no doubt over-blown in my mind. But what if her relationship with Miguel is as dysfunctional as it appears, and she refuses to draw a line? And what if she continues to fall into *her* old patterns and cut-and-run at any perceived threat?
For these reasons, I would like to address them and get some clarity and peace of mind. But, of course, that requires a great deal of tact to not thrust her into a panic, as well.
Regardless, at this point in our relationship, I'm still not convinced that she's "The One", and refuse to put all my eggs into her basket...yet. It's a good thing she's coming soon, so we can simply connect more and develop more trust and understanding.