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AU: 2x(40, 50, 60)

April 25, 2011 (Afternoon)

Exercise Type: Run

Weather: hot, humid, sunny, high 80s

Comments:
before practice i was shaky. the sources of stress were too numerous.
after anthony's speech, it dawned on me that there weren't many meets left. this was it. and running in the open 800 for the first time in a while is supposed to be my chance to prove myself.
by the time i got home from practice, the shakiness vanished.
numbness: you know that feeling when there's too many emotions to feel, that ur left unable to feel anything at all?
self-doubt: was that one meet some trick that i took as false-hope?
identity crisis: everyone telling me i'm this or that. every muscle in my body contradicting each other. do i dare think that im...that i can be...
tear drop: a tiny burst in sanity

of all the chaos, there is only one voice i can actually hear:
"i think i can't, i think i can't...i know i can't"