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out with C
November 25, 2013 (Morning)
Exercise Type: Other
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Per her "request" to meet "in the very near future", Chelsea and I decided to hang out after class, like "old times". Went to B-squared (B2), on the same block as the studio. It's where we went for our first "date" (8/2012), and a couple other times, including our last "appropriate" hang-out (10/2012, which was when she told me about the Jefe orgy...)
DAMN, she looked good! Neither of us showered, funnily, but WOW, she cleaned up good. She's so incredibly beautiful, and she looks even better now than a year ago: so much more positive energy and peace. I told her this as we sat down.
We sat in the same table, up front, that we did that first time. It was strange and scary and exciting. We both said, "I don't even know where to start!"
So we decided to categorize, what has been going on in the past year. Some of the things we talked about:
Biggest Accomplishment:
Her: buying her own house (w/her own $$, having a place for her kids that's their own, etc.)
Me: "mature masculinity" (e.g. "King, Warrior, Magician, Lover" meets "The Game", though I didn't mention the latter by name, or go into deal about it).
Most Exciting Friends/Family Developments:
Her: a couple of her friends getting married, her stepmom overcoming some addiction issues, her son "growing up into a real person" (he's 7, almost 8 now)
Me: Josie being born (last time we'd met there in 10/2012, my sis had just miscarried - she got RE-PREGZ a month later!), SADEZ being born; my mom running and "racing".
About midway through that, we stopped and did "arts & crafts tyme". We did "The Cube Game" (http://www.personalityquiz.net/relational/cube.htm). I just knew this would be awesome. It sounds like it's full of shit, but wow, it's "predictability" is incredible. In short, her picture was telling. It's just one of those fun, feel-good activities, and she LOVED IT.
Got back to chatting.
Talked a lot about family:
- Her immediate family, namely her dad, and how she talks to him every day, about a lot of things. I didn't ask, but I *think* she's been talking to him about me.
- Me, and whether or not I want kids (YES, of course! She made note that 2 of my 3 "exciting" things were childbirths)
Most Interesting Places Visited:
Her: a remote cabin in the middle of nowhere, Mexico, in this flood plain. She "took a 4-wheeler there herself and hiked in alone". Wow. (Side-note: she took this trip with Jefe; she didn't tell me this, but I knew it from FB. Why he didn't go with her is interesting. I did not ask.)
Me: TNF - the "You call this a storm??"/letting go moment on Coastal Trail; post-WS, traveling Cal 1 and going to the Mendocino parade on 7/4/
Most Excitement Upcoming:
Her: starting an after-school kids yoga program (super-cool: a story-based yoga program designed to teach kids emotional regulation and stress relief -- currently there's no such kid yoga program in all of Eugene).
Me: coaching HS (hopefully)
Throughout this, I was just staring at her. Oh man, she's so beautiful. I just kept thinking, "Is this person really 'mine'?" Maybe...maybe...
"You GET GOOSEBUMPS ON YOUR ARMS and think, 'If I can just EXECUTE for 15 more MILES!...'...."
As the night wound down, we got to talking about "the now". I talked about her letter, and how I couldn't read it 'til I got to the trail. I then revisited the "100-mile analogy", about how, even though, yes, we have a "race bib on" now, we still have to take it an AS at a time, and how it'll be easy to have "freak outs".
Wrapped up finally after 10PM (a solid 2.5hrs, close to 3). I walked her to her car. We hugged: oh man, did it rock. She feels SO GOOD in my arms. We stood there for a bit, and she said, "WHEN are you gonna kiss me??"
Ruh-REALLY, BRO?
We kiddingly got into it: "Hey, you have NO IDEA how long *I've* been waiting", I told her. I brought her close again. She said, "Well now you CAN'T".
"I know!"
"So WHEN?""
"When the time's right. We're friends, remember?"
I kissed her on the cheek. She kissed mine. We hugged again.
UGHHHZZZZZZ!
It was phenomenal. We finally parted ways.
Unbelieveable, right?
I'm SO-SO glad I didn't kiss her. I have to remember what my mission is: to protect her heart. She totz let her wall down tonight, and that doesn't mean I can just walk right in. Because when I do, when I cross that line, there's gonna be SOOO much power there, that I need to make sure she and I will be able to survive it!