View Workout (Joe Uhan)
Durango Sports Club weights
July 27, 2022 (Morning)
Exercise Type: Weights
Comments:
Good session.
4x:
* abs
* squat
* bench
* bicep + OH press
* "roman chair" back ext + 2x 15 db flys
Sauna afterward
Rest of the day:
* hustled back to Silverton
* two more clients
JSG update. I sent her one more care package:
A. the "Courage Rock": a rock that I grasped back after Labor Day last year, when we had a talk along the Yampa River. Then:
* she told me "we couldn't hang out anymore", after her (fuckhead) BF read her imessages and found out about our interactions
* I told her, "You can't marry him" - something I KNEW after our hangout with he and her on Friday night, when he was clearly such a pompous, insecure, arrogant fuckhead.
I kept that rock. I gave it back, saying that "courage" - between us both - is the only reason we're "here" today.
And, with her about to go back to ABQ and confront him, amidst this "break", she needs that rock more than ever.
I also added a letter, where I said, among other things, I can't keep going on like this: the uncertainty. The not knowing.
It's brutal.
And, to be honest, on the days when we barely talk, those are easier days for me.
So...after she read it, we chatted a tiny bit (though she's super-busy preparing for her trip), then texted. And I told her that I'm reverting back to "May 2022 Joe", where we basically weren't talking or messaging.
It hurts, but fuck it, man. If she doesn't know what she wants, by now? I need to walk away until she does.